My Pathetic Life...

ToDaY. . . . .

derickjuon — Mon, 23 Jun 2008 08:57:48 +0000

Thoughts . . . . .

derickjuon — Thu, 22 May 2008 19:44:01 +0000

In the prospect of seeing the reality of the current life we go in and out, assuming of its unlimited hold on our mind where the living conditions are concerned: its hard to see on where this has come to be and will it still continue to be more of a living or an obligation.

The ugliness of what we have assumed to be is that it has been said to be the one way we are suppose to by questioning the existence and the law of such will only be dealt with numerous enquiry whether or not it is usable nor has it a relation. The question is simple whether you would want to accept the change and go away creating the limits from the limited.

Making what is awkward seem far familiar and close will truly be an ironic pathetic-ness that eats me from the inside out. A hit from the world changed the more of the less and expected. How has this been such an utter embarrassment to the otherwise knowing self on the grounds of experience and life. . . the hope. But why has it been so long to wonder on, can this be truly what it is?

It is just simply one growth that doesn’t have an ending to it, still living on the grounds of hope. Why must it be so, is it just my unconscious mind and long. This must come to an end, to where it has came and stood, living in non-existing happiness will surely be a desire not worth time nor interest in. Generosity of the interest may be more than just nothing for one. A loss to much yet a risk to stupid to challenge, a long for more than time yet the plain words have nothing but emotions that had been in place, a depiction of the past to be felt yet registering cold chilling thoughts that it was not mine nor it is present nor future as the past will never be more then it was.

Its a pity, yet by looking at this is truly ironic. I may have been in positions overwhelmed; yet the desires were nothing worthy. Giving a sense of composure and a right of satisfaction may be truly a heart to my desire.

Coming to nothing is simply blunt to the point of a patronizing and doubt to myself on such ridiculous nonsense that has complicated the otherwise uneventful life of mine. Can more be worth, yes still a challenge far greater to one self to take for the search and gold is an illusion created by minds of hope.

It’s an end to the mind of desire and a rise to reality.

Looking at this in an optimistic way, though nothing has happened yet a realization is simply strong enough to create a wave that made accepting easier then the otherwise one pointless struggle. A try not made but realization of the events made by nothing for nothing is such a loss but more if so went by.

Having said that, I m never looking nor taking such immensely ridiculous indulgence to thoughts and hope for that has nothing more than just a smile you see, when you smile into a mirror.

None-the-Less

derickjuon — Wed, 14 May 2008 17:16:02 +0000

Goes on as it is, the day that creates the heart that moves. One that will surely come to where it should which is the stroke of midnight and the whole cycle starts over. Coming to see the days that went by and the laughter that were still high in air: has it been so long to forget or has the times of hardship change us?

Can the utter coldness of such fierce days: where the heart grows sallow and weak, a seemer of converse may be a light in-counter yet a distance too far to reach by notion.

How has the light shine far off could be glittering to nothingness. Has the unwillingness captured the soul? or has the withdrawal made the heart shake and question? is it so?

Shall we proceed with the uncertainty, the world of the unknown, and the dark force that encapsulate the marvels of who we search for, can we overcome the fear of simple doubt with questions.

The Eye of One

Coiffuring is like a seed

Doubting is like a breed

Running is like a creek,

common to one which is where they lead.

In gills of lives in where we bid,

and one of which is a deed,

That shall be forgotten if not reach.

Derick Doors

The Common Enemy

derickjuon — Sat, 03 May 2008 14:44:26 +0000

The point that over comes our minds are largely due to the certain comfort that we are indulged in yet the darkest pain can be found here as well. What we love and what we expect made things worth challenging and reaching out to. Still the unknown fact of these uncertainties made it such a alluring indulgence that made the least of us look more than it ever was. Why has it been such a murky imagery on the desires but made to be dark ink as we hoped for more to come our way? Is it not fair?

Has it been the utter thought that made us so vulnerable to out hopes and desires? yet why we dwell on this day in day out. Has it been the times that we simply close our eyes and hope for more to stay?

The days that come now are simply the times of numbness as it is a thought of warmth that gives a little life back to the otherwise cold rigid motion. To hope is to be living but the eventual doubt has more to succumb then time; the soul.

Giving in to the reality of the current is more than one can bargain. It has been a time where the judgment and the doubt overwhelms the ambient. The more people look into comfort and the perception they are suddenly comfortable in made it a vulnerable point to intersect. The beauty of these happenings are more on the ideal governance of their perceptions and how one like me indulge on their utter joy of being close to their own death trap. Having been in many situations in life, looking at this is nothing far off then extraordinary. Loving thee, loving me, hating thee joy-est me.

Having made all the decisions on the happening around me, i sit back to allow investments to come to life is simply all that is left to do and hope for the best out of the light.

Movies

Ironman

Based on the fictional Marvel Comics character Iron Man, released in various countries on April 30, 2008. Directed by Jon Favreau, Iron Man is about Tony Stark (Robert Downey Jr.), a weapon Industrialist billionaire who is captured by terrorists in Afghanistan. Ordered to build a missile for them, Stark uses his resources instead to build a powered exoskeleton to make his escape. Returning to America, Stark improves his armor and becomes the technologically advanced superhero Iron Man. With Gwyneth Paltrow playing as his personal assistant Pepper Potts, Terrence Howard plays jet pilot James Rhodes, and last but not least Jeff Bridges plays the villainous Obadiah Stane.

Development from 1990 at Universal Studios, 20th Century Fox, and New Line Cinema, before Marvel Studios reacquired the rights in 2006. They put the project in production as their first self-financed film. Favreau signed on as director, aiming for a realistic feel, and he chose to shoot the film primarily in California, rejecting the East Coast setting of the comics to differentiate the film from numerous superhero movies set in New York City-esque environments. During filming, what interesting is that the actors were free to create their own dialogue (an uncommon practice in other big budget films) because pre-production was focused on the story and action. Rubber and metal versions of the armors, created by Stan Winston’s company, were mixed with computer-generated imagery to create the title character.

Marvel and Paramount Pictures, the distributor, planned a $50 million marketing campaign for the film, which is modeled on Paramount’s successful promotion of Transformers (2007); Hasbro and Sega will sell merchandise, and product placement deals were made with Audi, Burger King and 7-Eleven. Reviews have been positive, particularly praising Downey’s performance. The film’s stars have signed on for two sequels, the story of which Favreau has planned to depict Stark’s alcoholism, Rhodes becoming War Machine, and the introduction of the villainous Mandarin. Downey also cameos as Stark in the upcoming The Incredible Hulk

A movie to watch and be amazed by as you are brought off your seat by the unpredictable actions, performance of the actors and also the storyline.

Ironman Trailer

Perfect casts of Iron Man

The Other Boleyn Girl

A 2008 film adaptation of the novel of the same title by British author Philippa Gregory and a remake of a BBC television film of the same name also based on Philippa Gregory’s novel. Starring Natalie Portman, Scarlett Johanssen and Eric Bana, it is a romanticized account of the life of the 16th-century aristocrat, Mary Boleyn, who was the sister of Anne Boleyn and one-time mistress of King Henry VIII of England. The film was directed by Justin Chadwick from a script by Peter Morgan (who also wrote a two-part television drama on Henry VIII in 2003). The film was produced and distributed in the United States by Columbia Pictures, and distributed overseas by Focus Features

A trully cut throat movie if you know what i mean.

Sex movie trailer

The Kite Runner

Original Cover of the novel

Based on the novel by an American author Khaled Hosseini. Published in 2003, and it is Hosseini’s first novel, and was adapted into a film of the same name in 2007

It tells of Amir, a boy from the Wazir Akbar Khan district of Kabul, who is haunted by the guilt of betraying his childhood friend Hassan, the son of his father’s Hazara servant. The story is set against a backdrop of tumultuous events, from the fall of the monarchy in Afghanistan through the Soviet invasion, the mass exodus of refugees to Pakistan and the United States, and the Taliban regime.

In view of the in-sight-full back drop of the movie, and perhaps a sincere look into a time we all were blinded by the news. This is a story that tells more than just the situation of Afghanistan but a look into ones deepest conjure of humanity. A look at how friendship plays a part that many are lacking. This is a wonderful experience seeing the society torn by years of conflict could serve more than any of us could possibly imagine. A scene that will make everyone think of one self in depth on any conduct as to all. This has made a great difference in all that we perceived.

Best Friends that know no boundary. . . . .

This movie is a direct interpretation from the novel and truthfully the message was strong enough to bring anyone down to consider ones life. Meaningful in many ways, making more of every little part we are left. This serves us to rekindle our life’s experience and reflect back on what have we achieve and honor others so deserving as the ones that truly are loved ones.

The spirit that was brought forth here knew no common enemy unlike the Taliban and the communist in the movie being the dark figures: it has no common rule, yet it sinks in to everyone who are close enough to reflect upon it. It’s a movie of reflection to say the least.

Times to reflect on

Its a movie that counters all that we have expected. Being so honest and real to the point of religion. This is truly a movie that was at heart of everyone who went through the struggle, though the darkness of these scenes brings forth the beauty of friendship, honesty, family values and respect. It is without doubt by far an honest look and a reflection of honor to a dear friend.

The Kite Runner; even the trailer captures you. . .

Finally there is a way to be good again . . . . . .

Its rather hard to understand people, yet all we can hope is simply hope. We believe in one, we trust in one, we hope so much in some but at times its seems relentless yet as a sense of doubt and redundancy filled us. Have it in a way to over come the thought that filled our minds, but the lightness of beauty seems more than in reach of any touch.

The reflection of the kite runner seems to touch more then just feelings: The truth.

Girl . . . . .

derickjuon — Fri, 18 Apr 2008 07:12:12 +0000

They sound better these day, girls

from paramore to i dont know how many now

but i m in to INine and One Star Story today

Apart from the good looking girl lead singer they sound energetic and the appeal goes further then that, the sounds are amazingly true to the heart and was able to portray more than just good listening. This is more then Avril can give, this is pure talent and life stories told form lips of everyday angels.

INine

A pop rock band formed in 2004 with their hit song, Seven Days of Lonely, was released through iTunes in September 2007 and has since become popular. Their debut studio album, Heavy Weighs the King, will be released in 2008 soon i hope. The song was put on US iTunes for free from February 19-February 25, 2008.

On the April 5, 2008 issue of Billboard, second single “If This Room Could Move,” produced by Nickelback’s Chad Kroeger, received a spotlight review by editor Chuck Taylor: “I Nine catapulted out of native South Carolina when Cameron Crowe invited the quartet to appear on the motion pic soundtrack for his “Elizabethtown.” At year-end 2007, it grazed the adult top 40 top 25 with “Seven Days of Lonely,” the debut from upcoming CD “Heavy Weights the King”—but that pep pill was a mere taste of the group’s prowess. Sunny follow-up “If This Room Could Move” is garnering hype because Chad Kroeger produced—all well and good—but bragging rights are earned on its own merits: an ambrosial vocal from Carmen Keigans, divine start-and-stop tempo, and instrumental elements that blend ‘90s jangle-rock with Brit pop. On record, they sound like a blissful union of Jewel and Sixpence None the Richer—if more Avril Lavigne live. With two exquisite singles in a row, I Nine is counting down to name-brand status. Utterly superlative

INine with change nothing

A good listen i must say

Listen to them on ilike: http://www.ilike.com/artist/I+Nine

One Star Story

Stepping in the footsteps of many great female fronted bands such as No Doubt, Blondie. One Star Story is poised to carry the torch of a new generation. The torch is passed on to continue the work of many greats before and to push the boundaries of the past. One Star Story is the answer. The Springfield, Missouri quartet has gained national spotlight with the announcement of their new record titled The Empty Room EP to be released in March on Transatlantic Records. With a definitive sound and style One Star Story transcends genres and continues to move the music world towards an exciting present and future. Do not miss your opportunity to witness this band in any capacity.

She is dangerously beauiful

One Star Story with Tears Behind a Smile

Check them out on Ilike: http://www.ilike.com/artist/One+Star+Story

slash 60ies look

Yuppers . . . . .

derickjuon — Mon, 14 Apr 2008 20:55:14 +0000

Having been away from school work and the occasional break-down of the so called great human body are some of the reasons to the lack of posts, many did happened and many still to come. The work that i have succumbed to are undoubtedly amazing, from the mind challenging details of homework and the immense idea that drives the creation of spaces that brings life to paper. Being happy for the work and being able to manage all in proper disciplines seem to bring light down my dark gloomy life these days. Onethat made the most is surely the heart that plays a tune that lingers longer then an mp3

Being in my shoes these days seem to be alot more then what people imagined it to be. All are looking on the dream world of life whereby everything seems to be perfect. The cover is nothing like the content, my world is more complicated than any other. I live a very comfortable life in my own terms but it is shrouded with withdrawal and secrets of the past that forces it self at every opportunity it can. Living a life where everyday is not a day to go wild but to put everything together seems hard to understand. Being able to have fun is something to uphold but only the heart knows what “fun” is. There are many days, many to to indulge in but yet one heart will always long for something that only one knows.

The perception of being self oriented is largely misleading but is general to all. Nothing of such an error, nothing is wrong until it is questioned and i seldom doubt my self. In cases such as these where people are not looking at the reality of individuality is the main problem, why of such obsecure notions? its just the diversity of mankind and is the nature of society. I have been about the same as them for almost my entire life, looking into the light of being mellow to my self would do me more good. Perception of others in my eyes have never been better: society revolves around involvement, rejection will occur once one refuse to be involve. I refuse to be uninvolved for the sake of enjoying the entertainment it brings forth.

There is also another light to certain cases that i truly indulge which is to be one with my mind. I do not see eye to eye with many because i believe there isn’t a proper reaction to my liking yet i am able to continue pleasing. I have many secrets many of which i believe are never a proper thought for all. I have many pasts and many likes of where i understand would be nothing of general. Do i live for them or for me? Have it come to a state that i do need to trade my soul for the arms of others? Highly unlikely. . . . . yet actions may request so, looking at my position giving in was probably the only choice: I refused.

Society can only go so far and whats worst is the mentality that is the norm amongst them. Reacting to them maybe one such example of torture. Being able to maintain composure and doing whats best for one self and more could prove the world. How have we became such? why weren’t the people hoped to understand were the soul of such complications? understanding minds is not a gift but a practice and so we live to react thus many eventual are written as triumphs. Let thee be and thee shall be.

Love and hate . . .

loving comfort is my heart’s greatest desire yet many interpret it as overly. Hate is a strong word yet despise more!. I look down upon the understanding of me by others, could this be any shallower? i love a person and not wanting to hate the one who seemingly shy away for reasons as deep as the pebbles on the smooth streams of nature. How of such can effect me? The hate of such.

Living my terms were as simple as the skies that cover our land and the sea that meets the skies, let me be. Still i shall be open and involve when approach in good light. No hate just plain self orientation.

Summary

Kuching trip= sucks!

Kayaking trip = Awesome!!!

Trip back= “killer”

School= awesome. . . .

People= jack ass

someone= sweet ( clueless )

me= hahaha

yuppers?!!

Movies:

La Vie En Rose (literally “The Life in Pink”)

An English release title of La Môme, a 2007 French movie directed by Olivier Dahan about singer Édith Piaf. The English release title is the name of Piaf’s best-known song. The film’s original title means “the kid”, because Piaf was known as “La Môme Piaf” or “The Kid Sparrow.” The film won two Oscars, four BAFTAs, five Césars, three Czech Lions and Golden Globes. For her performance as Piaf, Marion Cotillard became the first actor or actress to ever win an Academy Award for Best Actress (”Oscar”) for a performance entirely in French

The film presents a fractured and largely non-linear series of key events from the life of Édith Piaf. Although scenes often jump back and forth across decades (evoked as flashbacks mostly from within Edith’s memories), parts of her childhood take up much of the first part, and the movie ends with her death, and the performance of what is perhaps her signature song, “Non, je ne regrette rien“.

A touching movie that envolves around the troubled life of Édith yet her passion for singing over rules everything. I’d recommend this movie for movie nights as it will surely touch your heart. (Do watch the Orphanage too- i almost weep)

Twilight

This is an adaptation of a young adult vampire novel written by author Stephenie Meyer, originally published in hardcover in 2005. It is the genesis of the Twilightsaga, and introduces seventeen-year-old Isabell “Bella” Swan who moves from Phoenix, Arizona to Forks, Washington and finds her life in danger when she falls in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen. Movie is set to release on the same week as Harry Potter. . . . plus point of this movie over Harry: this movie is all about beautiful people. . . i mean it

Did i mention hot?

Cartoon World

Frederator says:

They’re almost here! The Second Annual Channel Frederator Awards will be held on Wednesday, June 4th 2008 at The Canal Room in New York City. Designed to recognize a wide array of achievements seen throughout the year on our weekly episodes of Channel Frederator, the Channel Frederator Awards honor user-submitted films in categories that range from “Best Flash Film” to the “So Cute It Hurts Award.”

Categories are:

1. Best Flash Film

2. Best Foreign Film

3. Best Music Video

4. Best CG Film

5. Best Traditional Film

6. Best Design

7. Funniest Flim

8. Sick Sick Sick Award

9. So Cute it Hurts Award

10. Kiwi Award

11. Badass Bunny Award

4 nomination vids:

Part 1

Part 2

Part 3

Part 4

Awesome!!!

Wish me luck

cheers

hahaha

derickjuon — Sat, 12 Apr 2008 08:39:04 +0000

i have been lazy

i m tired from school

seriously School is such a drag

loads of work &

idiots too

Now is my mid term break

woohooo i m going mountain climbing tomorrow

gotta release stress

but will update on this blog as soon as i get back

Truth. . . .

derickjuon — Sun, 06 Apr 2008 14:35:19 +0000

In days of short,

on light of court,

When given more to port:

Is an awake, then distort.

Derick Doors.

Glorious “vacation”

derickjuon — Thu, 27 Mar 2008 06:30:15 +0000

In depth of the discussion on whether to fully enjoy the day out to the largest island on this planet “technically” as Australia is a continent and Greenland is connected to the Arctic by ice, Borneo is left as one island where 3 counties share it. looking at many experiences explained: i was truly stunned by the trip and was actually looking forward to this. Nevertheless i believe God wasn’t too kind to again as i wasn’t too brought off my imaginations. . . .

Seriously an experience . . . . . . . .

Arriving on the skimpiest flight i have ever took to this island then was brought to the hotel/ lounge 121. . . . in a way reminding me to call 121 to check my voice messages. Even so with the IKEA sent of the room, made the feeling of it in a fake sale environment made a difference to my list of places been.

Made of mainly Chinese shop-lots the city of Kuching is a striking resemblance to Melacca in so many aspects, making the understanding of the culture and environment here easy as it is a close relation to home. Today is the day of getting use to the area as this is my first time here over to the east coast of Malaysia and judging from what i see here is not that far off from what is there on the peninsula, yet with the span of area on this land and the immense forest reserves, by the swirling snake river of the Rajang made this land truly clean and green something we all love to have in our daily life. It is a short day into the long 5 day adventure we are embarking to analyse a site for our design class.

Very very typical

Looking forward to see more of this place and i hope and wish and cross my fingers that this place will hold better secrets for me to appreciate and remember this place one day when i would want to look back down memory lane.

ps: it is actually a boring place to be . . . . . . .

At Baste. . . .

derickjuon — Thu, 20 Mar 2008 14:13:49 +0000

Wondering at the eternal shone that shine endlessly. . . . as thought it will never be put off, but that is just a miss-conception seemingly enough this may happen in time and that we may not be there to see it when it really does turn its socket off. That’s what our unfortunate life is all about. Never there for it to happen and never will have a chance to make a difference, never will have, never will be.

As this runs to your mind and registering an error in the system, do not be surprise to come to terms that we are unfortunately doomed. Anyhow we look at things and the effect that may occur this is surely a troubling thought to jolt your senses. Today is the 5th anniversary in the War in Iraq (as i would put it is actually the World War 3) it is after all the 3rd war that happened in modern day history where weapons, booms and all the mambo jumbo machines were use: its conclusive that it is a war that changed the world. Shockingly enough is by far one war that shouldn’t have happened. Its based on nothing solid and the effects are monumental. Judging on the world today. . . . ask your self: is it any better?

Yup its on fire . . . . . .

How have we come to such a state where greed over runs our judgement . . . can we continue to live like this? It is without doubt human nature to care for one self but when it comes to other lives and the world for that matter seem to be larger in-terms of consideration: Its is wrong anyway, if Iraq was left as it was, none of what is happening today will ever happen. Millions of lives saved, millions preserve and human right up-lifted. The world we see today is not what it is suppose to be. How hunger, protests, fights, riots, wars, killing and more. . . all based on religious stand?? why cant everyone let everyone be. . . we are all different, why cant we let each and other live the way they would want to?

Things can only change if the world works together for a stronger voice . . . . . . and as one
Another issue is global climate change. . . . this Sunday is World Water Day.

It is inevitable that the climate have change drastically, thanks to our global urge for money and development. The world today is a different place to live in and it will not improve for the better as time will not rewind itself. The damage is there and the only thing we can do to lighten the damage, by working together and curb the effects. Every little bit helps in global health . . . . .

Smoking awesome death man!!!!

The world will change a-lot sooner if we don’t act fast. We need to cut down on carbon emission and our habits. Recycling and awareness can go along way. . . Soon the world we see now and have come to know how it looks and feels will not be the same again . . . water levels will rise with it coast lines and islands too. Sandy beaches and swampy areas will be eliminated. We will be force to move inland, the lands will be smaller and smaller . . . . while our numbers grow larger and larger. There will be fights, torture and struggle. . . humans will turn into barbarians, because the environment forces humans to struggle onto what is left. . . the climate will prove too harsh to survive, many will die; cannibalism will occur as food source become limited because the climate change forces other life forms to extinct or move away. . . Life will not be easy because we did not do anything now. . .

This may not be so familiar as it is now . . . .

World Water Day. . . we must be aware that fresh water is very important in out daily lives and if we continue to contaminate our sources . . . bare in mind we are contaminating ourselves too. For our survival fresh water is very crucial, water is the core of life . . .

Save, Recycle and Protect our Waters before we have none to use . . .

Its important to know that we are not going to do any better at this state but we can lighten things by choosing the right person to lead us, fight the wrongs, recycle, re-use, save, be aware on what is happening in this world. . .

and Most importantly: tolerance in deception

If we love our home, do something about it.

keeping it together at baste, working to secure it together . . .