I used to find that I walk with a reason and on a path I chose. I sometimes feel that it wasn’t so like what it used to be, I simply am not to sure why.
I seen that everyday I awake I tend to go through the same routine that is about working out and breakfast before a day of challenges at work.
I can say that my life has been less complicated and had settled so, I have a life that I can say I am living without a sense of realism because it flows like a stream of water.
I now feel I have lost what it takes for me to different or I just simply think it so. I feel numb and vague though there are alot of happenings in my that push forth in front of my eyes. They manifest themselves as a routine that I live, some powerful and strong.
I am not stressed with all these, just I feel I am just comfortable which frightens me. I am living a life of what I presumedly wanted. Security of a simple life made me feel uneasy.
Why I feel this way, I am not too certain and more would I wish I had more is something that only greed and gluttony could explain, but I don’t and I didn’t see my self going through that, my life is somehow brought forth on a path far different then what I have seen my self wanting.
Perhaps this is what I am to be, a simple man- like how I wish it be where I could concentrate on what’s important to me: which I am still searching.
Maybe that’s the one thing causing this hollowness …
I am without a love.
